No, the topic of this newsletter is not a spin off of the movie, “Frozen.”  It does involve, however, a personal story based on a shift in perspective (much like Elsa, but far more real).  In this blog, I’m going to share a story of perceived pain, rejection, accusation and failure.  It’s a story of a “direct attack” on me and my business – some pretty big fears realized.  We’ve all experienced something similar, and so I want to share as well what I did to resolve this perceived “attack.” Here lately, there have been several incidents that have tested my faith in the human race.  And this is tough coming from someone who holds others in such high regard, one who knows that no matter what, our souls are all connected in light.  It’s long, but well worth the read.  Promise.

The Drama:
About 3 weeks ago, I received an email from a man who contacted me through my website.  I love receiving emails from my website, so I eagerly opened it.  It read something like this: “You’re on the Antifa list.  You’ve been exposed.”  I read it quizzically, and then merely laughed it off.  What the heck does Antifa mean, anyway?  I chatted with my husband and a friend about it, but then brushed it off.

The next morning, I received another similar message, this one a little more accusatory and angry (I’ll spare the details).  A little upset and hurt, I looked up what “Antifa” meant.  I don’t watch the news intentionally, so I was truly clueless.  Apparently, Antifa is an Anti-fascist group, far left, seeking to tackle the far right.  I thought to myself, “WHAT??! Seriously? How could I be associated with such a group?”  But I tried to let it go… again.  This is clearly not about me.

That Sunday after a workshop, however, I was walking back to my car, checking Facebook, and someone had sent a message that read, “Fight fire with fire!”  Again, seriously?  I teach meditation and peace, dude.  But this person had attached a link to a list.  So, I opened it out of curiosity.  I mean, who wouldn’t?  And, lo and behold, there was my name, my business, my work and what I stand for on the dark web (yes, it exists – don’t go there).  My heart and stomach sank, and I immediately went into panic mode.  What will they think of me?  Am I ruined?

Each day thereafter for the next week or so, people were spitting and spewing venom on my Facebook page and through my website contact.  They were posting this fictitious list on their Facebook pages.  I had to call the police, the local FBI, friends and family who would listen.  My husband even tried to contact the administrator on the dark web page, and he wound up reposting their email correspondence along with Chad’s contact information for all to see.  It truly was horrible.  I cried.  I thought, “This is ridiculous.  I have two complete polar opposites, both very angry, accusing me of being part of something I know nothing about! Why me??”  I became the victim.  I was scared, hurt, confused, powerless.

In a moment of pure desperation, pain and anguish, sitting on my bed, my teary-eyed, puffy-faced self bawling, I felt Jesus’ presence.  I call on him when I need help with healing others or working through tough situations, but this time, he merely appeared without my beckoning.  I always know it’s him because he appears as a sort of rose gold color with a gentleness, softness, and warmth that I cannot possibly describe.  He delicately reassured me by stating, “I know what you’re going through.  Trust me.” I laughed.

After a few days, and a phone call to a dear friend who “knows a guy” who eats computer viruses for breakfast, the dark web list including my name and several other innocents went down.  All the attacks stopped.  Life went pretty quickly back to normal within a few days’ time.

The Epilogue:
What I learned from this experience?  None of this is real.  These attacks?  Not real.  They are real in the earthly sense – we as humans still feel as my story portrays such intense emotions.  But, I needed to remind myself that what happened was not Truth (with a capital “T”).  And it did not come from a place of pure Love.  And when neither Truth nor Love is present, the situation is NOT REAL.  All that is real comes from God, and God would have only Love for us.  (Thank you, A Course in Miracles).  Do not let the clouds skew or distract you from your Light, and do not give what does not deserve your energy/attention the energy it doesn’t deserve!

Most importantly – and this is why I am writing this blog in the first place – should you ever find yourself in a similar situation, I strongly recommend following these 2 steps:

1.  Let it go.  When in doubt, do nothing.  Remember “This too shall pass.”
2.  Focus on what is most important.  Don’t dwell on the negativity.  Instead, focus on what you want, and the positive change will come.

One activity that my mentor and dear friend, Gina Spriggs, recommended (I LOVE this):

– Put the names of the people who are attacking you in a glass of water and stick it in the fridge to “chill” them out.  Works every time.

Lastly, and then I’m out, remember that you are always loved.  You are surrounded by light beings who love the heck out of you and want only for you to feel this energy so that you can share it with the world.  The world needs it right now!  BIG time!  These experiences, as painful as they may be, happen for a reason.  We are much stronger as a result.